I suppose caring for someone with an ailment or sickness is not easy.
It's coming to 4 months since my injury and recovery is still a long way away. My situation is kinda tricky. I don't have family where I am at so I am pretty much going through all this alone. For those who have been in the same situation as me, you probably understand what I mean.
When I broke my arm, I've only dated this guy for 1 year and 3 months. I guess it isn't that long at all and expectation of care may be of varying degree. I'm quite an independent girl having been through some dark, dark experience in life so what I needed was basically some emotional support and perhaps physical help for whatever I can't do.
He was really supportive at first and sympathetic with my situation. I have to say I probably wasn't a good patient myself. I may have got frustrated, angry and impatient at times but one must understand what I was going through. I was in so much pain it was literally a living hell. Also, not being able to use an arm is a big deal. You won't know it till it actually happens. Being an extremely fit and active athlete to an inactive slow person is not an easy adjustment. So he was by my side everyday for almost 4 months now. We did get into fights but we patched things up. Given the diminished social life and lowered self esteem didn't help with my situation. Nothing looked good on me. I felt unattractive etc
I guess slowly everyday I was pushing him away and digging myself a deep, dark hole. Today, we are officially on a break. We had a fight on Wednesday night and not spoke till today. I suggested a break. I guess my condition really put us on a toll. I have been crying since yesterday and tears are just streaming down my face. I don't know what to do and I don't know who to talk to. I don't know why I did what I did. Maybe I am depressed ............
Looks like I'm going to be broken, jobless, single and old for my birthday in 2 weeks time :(
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